"So many of my memories of Ryan are interlaced in my running," she said. "Ryan would tell me all the time, 'Toughen up, Alicia.' So it's difficult in a good way.
"The running is good for me. It provides a schedule to my day, a routine, a purpose. Especially now, when so much of my life has changed and come crashing down, things that are familiar are comforting."