I’m realizing that maybe instead of being resentful of his actions and/or ability to snowboard and run and play in his regular, non-human-carrying body, I’m struggling with my own neediness. It’s a new thing for me, and I find it frustrating.
I definitely get resentful that my DH can continue his life as normal and I can't do everything I want. Every time he goes for a run or has a glass of wine I get jealous. I guess I agree with Lisa - it's not really that he can do these things, it's the fact that I've changed (both in body and spirit) and it's hard to come to terms with.